Relief

As I mentioned in a recent post, I've just come off a very busy period with lots of travel.  I've been really looking forward to getting some time to myself to recharge, to think about the bigger picture and so on.

But...

I am at heart a freelancer.  This means I am continually plagued by the thought that the last job I did is the last one I'll ever do and the ever-darker forebodings of the financial press haven't helped my mood in the slightest.  So to say I was relieved when an email hit my BlackBerry last night confirming a large, interesting project that will run until mid-January is an understatement of the first order.

Being self-employed means continual, low-level anxiety about where the next job is coming from.  Even if it's entirely subliminal I suppose that buried somewhere in my fee structure is the cost of that anxiety.